Suddenly feel like blogging...now already 3 am in the morning, but don feel like sleeping yet because tomorrow no class.... i feel down and moody for this moment.... actually i feel like sleeping dy de..but suddenlly down...so..now sitting down and blogging.... i do not not what i want to write, do not have anything to share, just feel like updating my blog onli....
In HELP, i have been here for four months d....but i still cant really get used to it, just feel that i need someone to tum me and i want to lau gai onli...but i cant find a person that can let me doing this.... sometimes, i feel the loneliness, feel like talking to someone, feel like sharing something...but.... i do not find a fren like this in here... i have a lot of frens here but sometimes... i prefer keep inside my heart more than sharing it out cause i cant find anyone that i feel like sharing my things to..... i like to day dreaming and imagine things that will not really come true... but i still enjoy by doing so.... do u know exactly how i feel? i think u all cant rite? cause u are not me....
Loking outside the window, hearing some sentimental songs, my room is fill v those candle aroma and my yellow light is on.. can u imagine and feel what i feel? my roomate do not stay in the room often...so i can really lie on my bed quietly and think... whenever i do so, a lot of things come into my mind, and i cant even sort them out and cant organize them properly... what am i thinking? what am i hoping for? what am i looking at?what am i searching for? where is my heart going? i really don know.... i cant even find my heart....sad rite? i don know where it goes.... izit there? a place that i really hope to stay there...not because of anyone...is just because of u...pls hah..don think that u is u hah....don too syiok sediri ler...if u want to know... pls come and ask me privately and i will tell u who is that "u"de.... too complicated... is hard to make a decision...alot of things have to take into account... when i see how u all live, i really feel happy for u all, and guess what? i hope that i can join u all....i am writing this v a super, extremely sincere heart.... but.... too many things to be consider before i making this decision....haiz....don know what should i do and say... sometimes really feel like escaping from here..PUSAT BANDAR DAMANSARA....a busy place and i don really like it....
anyway, just emo la...will be ok soon...^^ good nite, tired d....
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