i long long time din update my blog d..suddenly feel like updating it..and now i am doing do ler...really feel "ngiak" and "sien" ler... Dont know why, i feel lonely...not that lonely like what u all think...is like.... deep inside my heart... i want holy spirit to fill me up... i hungry for GOD's words... i need him - jesus in my life... this is what i want to say now... i am hearing a cd from Pastor Dennis during the World Harvest Church Camp... feel peace now... but still need more holy spirit... i experience God more in this camp... i feel very happy and touched.... Someone prayed for me and again i sensed holy spirit and i falled on the ground.... may be you all may feel terrible... but what i can said is when u really open your heart to HIM and u will feel something different... only HIM can transform people... sometimes i do not know where to start...i am a young believer... i do not know how to preach gospel to someone i do not know... i feel shy but what i must know is... i should not ashame about the gospel and i should tell all my frens and family members about HIM... we all are in a urgency situation.... i need to tell them what is going to happen but i still scared and feel shy to share...i scared i tell them the wrong gospel and deliver the wrong message...i admit that my spirit is not that strong yet and i will easily get defeated by te devil but i will pray for it...
I believe by one day, i will manage to share and pray for others.. i hope everyone know that HE loves us so much..before we know him, he already chosen us as HIS beloved daughther and son... whenever i think of this, i feel much more better... at least i know that there is a real GOD that die for all of our sins... he used his blood to clean and clear all of our sins... but we still born as a sinner... this message i knew since i was young... but now... after 10 years onli i really get its meaning... i found out that i found peace and happiness after i know HIM more... and u guess what...i wanted to develop myself and i wanted to know what is my ability in serving him... i wanted to know all this things through him...he is an awesome GOD and i LOVE him.... it is true... i know he is the LORD of LORDS.... he can heal people... all we need to do is just seek him and believe in him.... is very easy right... why not... u all try and seek for him and settle all the things using his way and not on our way... HE exists and he will guide us in everything we do... He will make a way for us... HE do all the things that we cannot see... so what we can do...is just put trust on HIM and strengthen this relationship with HIM... Now i am trying hard to do it... just put faith in it... after i typed all this...i really much more better and feel released... ^^
