Its been a long time i din update my blog, and now..i quite free so i decided to update it....u all know what? i met a lot of frens here and honestly...i feel very very happy.... julie and han yen...two of them very close because they were classmates from sabah since last year...two of them have the same hairstyle and they like to use same things including bags, shoes, pencil cases, shirts.... funny rite? Beside that i met timothy, wei min in my class...he brought me to his church and now... every sunday i am going to world harvest church which is located in wangsa maju...actually is quite far from my place as i need to sit bus and lrt to reach there...
i told alan that i really tired...i don like living here....my BODY is tired, my HEART is tired and my MIND is tired also...i do not know why..i just feel tired..... and yesterday we went to one u....we went to neway and sing k....crystal got her scholarship and she decided to go bac to taylors to do twinning programme...she is one of my best fren that i get know here... alan. crsystal and me...three of us can talk and share our feelings.... we like get know to each other for a long time..but the fact is..I just know crystal in this two weeks onli...alan..i know him since last year...
Yesterday, i felt the same thing again...TIREDNESS.....CONFUSSION...SADNESS came across me... alan and crystal told me something and i feel like crying...crystal was holding my hands and i know two of them very worried bout me and they do not want to see i get hurt anymore... and of course i do not cry in front of them.... every nite..my mummy and daddy wil call me for sure... when i heard their voices...tears rolled down from my cheeks.... my mummy asked why am i crying.. i told them i want to go home..i miss home....they very worried and ask whether is anything happen there...i told them i am fine, i just missed home... you all sure say i am daddy and mummy's girl rite? actually...things happened in this two weeks... i feel tired...and my heart... i don know what to say and what i feel...i just feel tired and confused.... i really need people to guide me....alan and crystal are the ones who guide me in my life... so...yesterday when we were singing... few of us cried... i don know what was in their mind.... and i know what i am thinking..and tears dropped.... sometimes when things happened...means it was happened...they are no other ways to solve and forget about... and of course i will force myself to do so...if not...i will feel the same feelings again... SADNESS, CONFUSSION AND TIREDNESS....
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