Restless Nite...

I feel restless tonight...i do not know why..i felt this suddenly, i just feel restless...not only restless, my heart is pain...i felt this kind of pain again...erm...what i am doing now? sometimes human will think all the negative ways and forget that there are still other choices out there..why must i think negatively? i should think positively so that i will feel better....

Actually i admit that i very "small gas" ..u know what i mean...i do not like ppl talk loudly and shout at me...when you shout at me, i will get a shock first and i wont feel want to talk to that person in the next few hours...i really really do not like ppl TALK loudly to me..in the eyes of them, actually they are talking to me...but i will feel that they are shouting at me...you know who you are...i really do not like this....as what u say, u do not like i raise my voice, so do i?

" When i turned back, you are not the same anymore". This phrase suddenly came in my mind..so i posted it on my msn....i really do hope this will not happen again..cause i really do not like ppl raise their voice to me, i cared my frens, and i cared You also..so try to think back how i treat you, and then only u decide am i wrong or right..Everyone have their own likes and dislikes...i know yours..so please, you have to know mine too...i respect u and u should do that to me too...when u raise your voice to me, actually i am crying and struggling in the same time...just that u do not know..cause i promised, i wont cry in front of you again...this is what i feel....sorry, if this post did offend you...

E5 ...Where are you?

i just read kenny punya blog..i feel lonely again...i don know why...i am going out later with kok wei later because we want to celebrate alan and veenee birthday...kenwei, phillip, vincent, alan, gui yang ,vee nee and liching is going as well...actually, i am going back to ipoh tonite de...but i really hope to meet my old frens...so i decided to ask daniel to pick me up at the place we are celebrating ppl birthday...

Erm...i do not know why i feel down suddenlly, may be is kenwei ba..he is bringing his gf out later.. actually i am ok with it, is just that no one even tell me he is going until just now i heard alan mentioned it...i really thought i can cope and handle with my own feeling de..but when i heard what alan said, i feel down down down.... i already told myself to move foward, but sometimes, i will think back...think for a moment... now i also don know what is in my mind...i just feel ...i also don know what i feel.. yeah, i should go for the reunion..for what i scared and worry..cause we are still frens...hoho..^^

What is in my mind actually?

Sometimes is just very hard to get all the things out of my mind...Is not that i don want get all those things out from my mind..is just that i do not know what to do...sometimes when you get tired of something, you will try to let go and forget about what is happening at the first place...i know i am at the wrong track and i am trying to pull myself back to the right track...but the problem is, i cant even control myself and i lost my mind....what should i do now? I feel like i don have a right person to talk what am i thinking...is very hard when nobody at your side when you is suffering, when you need advice, when you need a hug or even when u need a person to wipe away your tears...

New sem is starting, and i don know what to do again, i have no goal in my life, i don know what to achieve also...So, i am having a boring life and what should i do to get this feeling off my heart?i do not have the passion to study anymore.. what should i do then? I am having a tough period now...Haiz...i think i need to think about this again...really hope to get all the things on the right track again...

A new Start

The contract law - Mistake is driving me crazy ler..really feel sien er..tomorrow our teacher, mr Adnan, is giving us a test on MIstake... i feel scared cause tomorrow it is a close book test...i started to worry.. but now i feel sien d cause really ngiak bah...den suddenlly i saw my bible on the shelve...den i feel like blogging d...

u know what, last sunday pastor david prayed for me.. he said i am going to work for the nations and something like that...i cant remember d... that nite, daniel ,my ipoh fren called me and we talked for a while. Later on, his fren from US, meow, asked me what is the difference between the old testament and new testament..den of course i told him what i know... suddenlly feel like sharing a verse...and i really did that...i added daniel in the conversation and i started to share v them... at first i feel uneasy and worry because i scared i will share something wrong to them...but don know why, when i started to share, all this weird feeling gone... i just keep on telling... i felt that there is something different... at least now i dare to share v a ppl that do not know god at all... That kind of feeling...i do not know how to describe it, i just feel good,happy and satisfy with what i did...this is the first step i took and i think i on fire d...a breakthrough..i told chris...i really happy and grateful to be a christian... is a really good to have god in my life...

Meow asked me do i really believe in GOD? can i change anything...u know what i answered him? i said yes, i believed in him, i can change things but i wanted to follow him...HE will guide me and provide me everything ...so i do not plan to change anything on my own... i really hope that the fren of mine can know You more... know You more not because of anyone, is just because of you, Lord... Now, Lord pls guide me...let me on fire and keep on burning....^^

Loneliness Came Across Me Tonight

i long long time din update my blog d..suddenly feel like updating it..and now i am doing do ler...really feel "ngiak" and "sien" ler... Dont know why, i feel lonely...not that lonely like what u all think...is like.... deep inside my heart... i want holy spirit to fill me up... i hungry for GOD's words... i need him - jesus in my life... this is what i want to say now... i am hearing a cd from Pastor Dennis during the World Harvest Church Camp... feel peace now... but still need more holy spirit... i experience God more in this camp... i feel very happy and touched.... Someone prayed for me and again i sensed holy spirit and i falled on the ground.... may be you all may feel terrible... but what i can said is when u really open your heart to HIM and u will feel something different... only HIM can transform people... sometimes i do not know where to start...i am a young believer... i do not know how to preach gospel to someone i do not know... i feel shy but what i must know is... i should not ashame about the gospel and i should tell all my frens and family members about HIM... we all are in a urgency situation.... i need to tell them what is going to happen but i still scared and feel shy to share...i scared i tell them the wrong gospel and deliver the wrong message...i admit that my spirit is not that strong yet and i will easily get defeated by te devil but i will pray for it...

I believe by one day, i will manage to share and pray for others.. i hope everyone know that HE loves us so much..before we know him, he already chosen us as HIS beloved daughther and son... whenever i think of this, i feel much more better... at least i know that there is a real GOD that die for all of our sins... he used his blood to clean and clear all of our sins... but we still born as a sinner... this message i knew since i was young... but now... after 10 years onli i really get its meaning... i found out that i found peace and happiness after i know HIM more... and u guess what...i wanted to develop myself and i wanted to know what is my ability in serving him... i wanted to know all this things through him...he is an awesome GOD and i LOVE him.... it is true... i know he is the LORD of LORDS.... he can heal people... all we need to do is just seek him and believe in him.... is very easy right... why not... u all try and seek for him and settle all the things using his way and not on our way... HE exists and he will guide us in everything we do... He will make a way for us... HE do all the things that we cannot see... so what we can do...is just put trust on HIM and strengthen this relationship with HIM... Now i am trying hard to do it... just put faith in it... after i typed all this...i really much more better and feel released... ^^

Do i See Grace?

Finally, i received this song "I See Grace" through wei min's sharing folder...rushing for assignment..but i do not care about it....i do not know why...i feel extremely down...alot of things bothering me and i do not know what should i do...do not know what decision should i make..the first thing i do is...i sit down and pray to the GOD...and i found peaceful d..and now i can sit down and do my things d... i am happy when i received this song..cause it is very meaningful... i love this song so much.... i heard it in world harvest church.... let me show u the lyrics...

Now i am hearing this song and tears dropping...i do not know why..i just feel touched... i do not know how to describe what i feel...everyone like ignoring you for whole day....but when i prayed , i found peace.... and i feel that God is beside me... he do not ignore me... thats y i feel touched when i hear this song...now i really feel better and i am blogging here...

Jesus My heir

I call on Your name

I cast my cares on You

Jesus my hope

my tower of strength

my faith is found in You

Chorus

I see You pierced

wounded for me

when I look to the cross I see

I see grace

sealed by your sacrifice

I see love

reaching for me

Precious blood

washes and sanctifies

Healing flows

setting me free

I see grace

Bearer of sin

Afflicted and tried

You paid redemption's price

Bearing my curse

You set me on high

Your death has brought me life

Repeat chorus

Moot Court

Today i was attending a moot court in legal skill class...Everyone look nice in their formal clothes..White top and black bottom... we look so formal and i like the way we were dressed... me, hanyen and crystel went to Pavillion to buy our formal clothes yesterday...of course we enjoyed the process of buying formal clothes..we look smart in our formal clothes....it will helps to build our confident when we are wearing our formal clothes during mooting...

Me and my partner, Carey Su won the case... We are representing the appellant Forence Scott and we are trying to help our client to appeal in the House of Lords. Ren Zheng and Ling Hui are representing the respondant, David Schumacher. At the end...the judge, our legal skill teacher allowed the appeal...This means that we won the case...i felt the hapiness because what we prepared was not wasted. we started our research on thursday and we have to pass up our Bundle of Authorities and Submission Outline to our teacher on friday... my partner is very very good...haha..he helped me to do the submission outline and i helped him to find the resources and highlighted it so that it is easier for him to do the submission outline.. this is what we call TEAMWORK..!!!

I very happy yo part with him because he is a very smart guy... he do not have any law base but he still can present all the points clearly and he rebarted very well during the moot court...I asked him to do the submission outline in a briefly form because it is just a practise but he went to study the legal skill attachment. He wrote it by referring to the legal skill attachment. Sooooooo hardworking...he just used one nite to finish it and he know what he is doing...Although i found the resources but there are times i went blur and i do not know what am i doing and i got blur with all the points.

Before our team started...we feel very nervous....and when u really debating and presenting , u do not feel anything..cant feel the people around you, cant hear all the noises... cause we are scared and we have to pay attention to the points that the opposing party is going to bring out to make our grounds fail.... i very easily to get panic, so when i was hearing the points that the opposing party was giving... i cant think anything to rebart them... luckily my partner is smart enough... he told me what points i should use to rebart them... and .... THANKS GOD...we won the case...

CArey , thanks ya..happy to part with you... next time part with me also ler.... so u can do the submission outline....wakakakakaka....evil-nya

p.s : Will upload more pictures bout mooting...especially my partner and me de pic...more pictures on frenster

... keryee in formal wear...


my moot court partner...carey su...

crystel, keryee,hanyen in formal wear

gai gai-ing in Pavillion