因为某人

我 是一个平凡得不得了的女生
甚至会不起眼 我是如此渺小

爱 是什么？
十九岁的我有资格谈这一类的东西吗？
不是该要好好念书吗？
某年某月某一天
我认识了一个让我自己变得不平凡的--某人
某人的关心和体贴 让我知道我再也不会平凡

我 心中有太多不能说的秘密和感受
我 有着不能和任何人述说和分享的秘密
这是我一辈子与某人的秘密和约定

我永远都找不到，到不了那爱情所谓的美好
我一直都在寻找
明明知道最后都不能如我所愿
但我还是不停的越陷越深 我认然愿意等待
因为我已经停不下来了
我只能往前走 只能见一步，走一步
我很害怕、天知道我是多么的害怕
但 某人你知道吗？
知道我想的是什么吗？
但 我不愿停止 也不愿放弃

你知道吗 要放弃一个人是需要多么多的勇气和毅力
我知道我完全没有那种勇气和毅力
所以我只能像鸵鸟一样 把自己埋在土堆里
不去管和理会任何的东西
现实归现实 但懦弱的我像瞎了一样 聋了一样 不去理会
我以为这样现实就会离我而去 但 事情却并不是那样

我 变了许多 那股顽强和倔强已经没有了
某人感觉到了吗？
我 再也没有发脾气 不敢发脾气
因为某人会皱起眉头 不喜欢
我很努力压抑自己 就因为这样所以常常让自己受委屈
但 我不在乎 因为某人你

对我来说某人真的非常重要
没了某人 我知道我会窒息
笑容离我而去 眼泪缠上我
像世界没了色彩 歌声不再动听 所有东西都成了黑与白

现在我所面对的东西跟本没人会知道
就只有我和某人了解 大家都活在回忆里
某人你辛苦，累吗？其实我辛苦和累了
妒忌不停地在我心中翻滚
但 我会努力学着控制和掩饰
因为某人你 让我再一次有勇气去和辛苦和累做对抗

“心痛”像是我的好朋友 常常找上我
但 我没有投诉 因为某人
某人懂我的一切 但 我却不懂某人想的是什么
好想知道某人想的是什么

因为某人想的东西并不是我所想的 好希望某人能够明白和谅解我
我无时无刻都害怕某人跟我重复同样的话--“放弃吧，对你会好一点”
可是固执的我总懂我自己该做什么
我 不会轻易放弃 因为还不是时候
等吗？ 我不知道...

“疲惫” 也像是我的知己一样 常常找上我
我不敢和某人说 因为某人又会再一次叫我放弃或离开
每当某人和我说这些的时候 好奇的我会想知道某人会心痛吗？
但 我心却很痛 因为我根本不想离开或放弃
所以某人 不要再叫我放弃或离开
让我静静的付出 可以吗？
多相信我一点 相信我所说的一切
因为我一直认为 某人你会懂我


我不怕眼泪和疲惫 我会变得坚强 因为某人你.....

612 星球

滿園玫瑰 我以為找到我那一朵

認真愛了 卻狠狠刺傷我的雙手

責備什麼人也沒有用

玫瑰都紅 難免看錯

望著天空 愛是否活在童話裏頭

小王子說 有些事流浪過才會懂

原來每顆心都有個洞
找不到真愛 會一直寂寞

我但願有一個人在等我

在屬於我的612星球

好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走

不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我

無條件擁抱著我的所有

相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘

花別謝太快 請你等等我

擦乾眼淚一個人漂流在這宇宙

小王子說 愛一定開在某個角落

路上相愛的人那麼多

我會幸福嗎 在什麼時候

My fren send me this song...today i very emo...i do not know why...tears keep on droping...my heart is very pain....is really pain... i got alot of things that have to be keep as a secret and i do not have a suitable fren to share with...i tried very hard to keep those secrets that no one know...those secrets are located deep inside my heart...so, i started to feel tired and i am running away again..from reality... i miss home...

But, I think i miss the PAST more...

I'm AlreadyThere

He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say
I love you one more time
But when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
Said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing
that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know
I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids
they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be
in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light
and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there 'till the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there ''till the end
Can you feel the love
that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already
There

Touching? ^^

Moistfull...

MOISTFULL ..wondering what is that rite? is a mask....my fren bought me a mask....we promised to exchanged present on christmas de...and u all know what? today onli i got chance to pass it to my fren....Luckily i passed it to him today if not i think it will become valentine present d...

i bought a Nike bottle for my fren...a grey bottle...actually, i like pink colour...but i think i wont use it for long...so i decided not to buy it but i bought it for my fren as christmas present..i hope he like it...cause i think it is useful...haha..^^

we exchanged our present in LRT station... i feel shocked when i get his present cause it is from ETUDE HOUSE....it sells some girls stuff de...such as face products, cosmetics and body care products de...so i wondering, he went with who and bought my present?...finally, he bought me a mask named "MOISTFULL"..so, now i am trying whether izit really moistfull? haha^^..wait me finish using, then i will tell u the effect ya...

Anyway,Daddy Fish, thanks ya, do like the present..^^

Erm, you know what? one of my super duple close fren LOU GAI d...the fren of mine don want answer my fon...i got a lot of things to share with her...i want to show her things...but she ignored me...i feel damn sad lo...cant contact her at all..haiz....i kept calling her...hope that she will answer my fon, but i only felt disappointment....SOBZZ....do miss her...

Everyone is leaving to australia d...i feel "em she dak" ba...yesterday, phillip is going to adelaide d...so a bunch of frens is going to airport and send him off...but, u know what? i cant even see him ..he had o go in and check in d...but that time me and alan is finding for parking..during the way 2 airport, alan they all drove damn fast la...160...that time i talking on the fon, i just cut the conversation off and "HELP" alan to see cars...i just know how to scream inside the car...cause they all drive like MAD ppl.... Mei QI is leading the way....She drive MY V...but hoh, she can speed till 160...so this already proved that....PERODUA punya car can speed de...no DOUBT..!!!!

I feel damn scared when sittiing in the car...cause too fast d...kok wei told me he can feel that all the trees and things is flying pass the window..and i just can tell him, i no time to see those scene outside alan's car....haha...damn dangerous...Mei qi wanted to cut a loooong lorry...and there is a bus coming on the opposite road...alan's car is at the back of mei qi's car, we cant cut the lorry cause there is not enough time...can u imagine, u are looking your fren driving at the back, and the bus is coming opposite..and nearly...."BANG" her...?!!!!!what the....mei qi....don drive like that d!!!!

Besides that, kok wei also the another one, nearly "BANG" a kancil....Me and Alan saw it.....!!!! phew....one word to describe....DANGEROUS....plsss ar..no next time...if not i think i will cry....if want eat seafood in KLANG....send our fren off onli we go and enjoy...cause last nite is an experience for me...BAD EXPERIENCE!!!!

我还想她

Long time din update my blog d...chinese new year is going to end...this year, i had a boring new year...^^ blek... i heard a song today...i fall in LOVE with that song....i think...!!

泪水将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉 这段感情
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这 一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这 一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
我不爱 我不痛 我不懂
我的心早已经掏空
真心话言不由衷
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这 一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答

别告诉她 我还想她
就让沉默 代替所有回答

This song quite meaningful for me...i "gek lou" someone today..i tried to download this song today, but i cannot download it...my fren purposely online and help me download...u know..i very bad...my fren wait me online so she can send to me de...but i went out v my frens so i came back late...she angry d..i think...anyway...don angry d ler k? i know i am bad..

i very appreciate what u do...thanks ya...don angry d ya..muackz ^^

Baby fish Rene is missing someone now...Sobzzz...You know who?....haha^^

I feel RESTLESS...

Everything is coming to me in one shot...i feel extrmely restless and sad...i do not why i feel this way...Yesterday, my friend told me he wanted to get married...this phrase keep on repeating in my mind...WANTED TO GET MARRIED...i do not know why, i think alot ...really alot... Marriage...is a long way for me to go...but for someone, they are actually planning to get married...

i feel lost in everything... i lost my confident...i lost my happiness... Why i always think negatively? i want my heart back... no matter how hard i searched, i still cant get my heart back...or lets talk in a different way, i do not wish to take back my heart.. U said u will give bck my heart...i cannot imagine that moment when i take back my heart from you... i really cant imagine...

I always told myself that you are not good enough...You are not the one i need...I always told myself this kind of things...but when i told myself these, i will find some other reasons to say that actually you are not bad...may be we met in the wrong timing...or actually we are not suitable for each other at all...i do not trust in True Love...for me, there is no true love...for me, relationship is only a process...may be from the start, you do not like someone much, but when time pass, you cant lose her or him in your life...this is what you call relationship..there is no true love at all...this is what i learned...

I really do not what should i do...everyone is telling me that i am not alone...but actually i am...i feel extremely LONELY...i am so fragile now...i always go to class alone..wait for the bus, wait for the LRT, walking to class..ALL ALONE... when i alone, my tears can just drop anytime...i cant control myself de..when i stuck the earphones in my ears, i will feel emo..then tears will drop..so stupid rite? cried in the bus and walking alone..the people around me will feel that i am extremely weird and childish...but i do not care how people see me cause this is me...

i have alot of time to think... but i just want to escape from reality...i do not want to think...i just want to hide myself, i know i am very stupid when i do this.. but i really hope to hide myself...i want to go a place that is no one can recognise me...but.. i know i cant do this...I want SUNSHINE... i do not want RAIN... i want LAUGHTER, i do not want SADNESS... i know we can control ourselves by stop thinking those negative and sad things...but i cant...for this moment..i really cant...please forgive me... SORRY....

孤单的人总说无所谓

我的心真得累了

难道你一点也看不见

解释再多也不能改变

感情不能靠我一个人挽回

开始学着不要人陪

假装孤单也是一种美

大街上的情人双双对对

让我看得心越来越碎

孤单的人总说无所谓

其实心里一直在下雪

总是希望有个人能够敞开我心扉

让我在他怀里找到安慰

孤单的人总说无所谓

一直独自整理所有伤悲

掩饰心中的感觉

强忍眼角的泪水

聚聚散散

不愿说后悔

我的心真得累了

难道你一点也看不见

解释再多也不能改变

感情不能靠我一个人挽回

开始学着不要人陪

假装孤单也是一种美

大街上的情人双双对对

让我看得心越来越碎

孤单的人总说无所

谓其实心里一直在下雪

总是希望有个人能够敞开我心扉

让我在他怀里找到安慰

孤单的人总说无所谓

一直独自整理所有伤悲

掩饰心中的感觉

强忍眼角的泪水

聚聚散散

不愿说后悔

孤单的人总说无所谓

其实心里不停在下雪

只能希望有个人试著敞开我心扉

让我在他怀里找到安慰

孤单的人总说无所谓

还是独自整理所有伤悲

掩饰心中的感觉

强忍眼角的泪水

聚聚散散

不愿说后悔